blah blah blah depression, lack of sleep, girls suck blah blah bah im an average 20 year old, with stereotypical problems blah blah music rules

So during my talks with my mother (which seem to happen during every break) i feel like she’s always trying to judge where i stand in life. Like she REALLY wants to know i have plan and a good one.

But the more i think about it, the more I’m certain. I don’t have nor want a plan for my life. We’ve been told to make plans since birth, and it’s gotten me nowhere. Sure goals are great, but why do i have to force them? Why can’t i just flow though life, taking opportunities that come by and not one’s i try to force to happen? I want something that feels natural. I’m willing to wait for it too whether it be a job, love, a home, a path in life, anything. I want to to be and feel natural, and have it be right. If not i don’t want it. And i could live without just about anything.

Idunno

I just feel limited ya know? Like I’m missing what’s out there.

ah sleep, how you evade me